Time has passed and things have gone numb. In some deep corner of my mind there still wanders a bit of doubt floating by. Was it ever true? Did it really happen? And then I realize that not only did it happen, but a big part of me left with it. Oceans away it stands. It's a whole other continent, a whole other species, a whole other world. Imagine a life where everything we wanted could be obtained. There'd be no heartache, no troubles, no worries. Utopia. A friend that understood; the unique quality of a person that made my world spin, that when everything stood upside down somehow managed to right it all for me. But betrayal is something that runs deep down in the blood, it's something that we rarely forget, that we may never forgive, that keeps us all bottled up and insecure forever on. It's the worse kind of harm, of damage, it's something that destoys our inner beings, that leaves us with shreds of ourselves. That scream that rent the air, that horrible sound that escaped from the fog, that echo that you heard from deep withing, it escaped from my lips as a call for help. I know that there is no going back, no route of escape, no way of turning back time and that I should find the way to move on and forget what was. I'm hopeless, for as much as I try to forget, to forgive, to move on, I still think back and I realize that.....I miss you. |
